But do you know what I discovered?
That it really wasn't.
I woke up today and determined to be happy, I PRAYED to be happy. There was a weight in my heart that just wouldn't go away. The questions pressing on my mind, the doubts and fears that were trying to push there way in as I tried so hard to push them all out.
My heart hurt.
I walked up to the gardens at the school (something I haven't done for a long time) and laid down under the willow trees in the grass and just breathed. I looked at the beautiful world around me and for a moment I felt better, a peace for a moment.
Then I had a miracle.
It happened rather unexpectedly actually. I had a series of miracles:
The thought for FHE was simple and short, and touched my heart...
and then I met Aubree.
Aubree is blind.
We were walking to the park for an FHE activity and I noticed a blind girl waiting to walk across the street. I didn't think much about it, the thought just came to talk to her so I did. I asked her how her day was going and found out that her day was going worse than mine.
So funny how quickly things change.
The path split and I found myself walking to the swings with Aubree as my FHE family followed the other path.
I thought about what Aubree was telling me, and I asked the Lord to help me. He did. I asked her to name 10 things she loved about life.
She did.
She loves the sky, she can see a little of the sky, and a little of the trees. She has never seen the stars.
I found myself singing "Rain drops on Roses" at the swing set with Aubree.
I shared a scripture and told her how much she means to her Heavenly Father.
We have the same CTR ring.
Aubree cried.
I gave her a hug, and I said, Thank You.
Aubree was an answer to my prayers.
Sometimes the hurt we feel enables us to love someone else. Sometimes reaching out when our heart hurts is the healing we seek.
Today was a miracle.
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